day four

24 days

22 hours

41 minutes

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I'm finding myself incredibly stressed out over the past two days.  The boxes packed up all over the apartment is giving me crazy anxiety.  I can't handle the mess of my things being held from me.  It's like the boxes are tormenting me "you're ready to move but you're stuck here in limbo for the next few days."  I'm miserable in the waiting here and any little thing is just stressing me out.  The groomsmen have a group text that for whatever reason I'm included in (probably because I'm a bro too).  Last night the group text was blowing up my phone with notifications and I couldn't handle it.  I had notifications from that, emails, home work assignments due by midnight and a paper due this morning, and boxes completely surrounding me.  The notifications were piling up like the boxes around me.  

To my groomsmen boys: I'm sorry for getting cranky with you all, thank you for being Mike's boys and my boys.

So here I am, waiting. Sitting in my living room on the couch surrounded by boxes and wall decor piled up.  Waiting on going to class, waiting on leaving this apartment, waiting on my life to begin with Mike.  

I'm impatient.

So thanks to James, God had a few things to say to me.  

Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming.  See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and the spring rains.  You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near.  Don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged.  The Judge is standing at the door! Brothers, as an example of patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord.  As you know, we consider blessed those who have perservered.  you have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about.  The Lord is full of compassion and mercy. James 5: 7-11

Chill, Meg.

  My anxiety was overwhelming yesterday.  I felt so stressed about every little thing.  Things like cleaning the glass tables at the office were stressing me out.  What on earth? C'mon Meg!  There is nothing God can't handle. I'm so thankful for friends who love me and care for me when I let these earthly stressors take over.  I just need to chill and let God do God.  I told you, I have trouble letting go and letting God do His thing.  But obviously, I just need to chill and be patient.  Good grief, Charlie Brown, I'm moving in 5 days. 

 God waited so patiently for me.  It's my turn to be patient for His timing and for our hearts to be prepared for His provisions.  It should be my first inclination in times where my anxiety is too much for me to give it all to God.  He tells us that there is nothing new under the sun.  He knows it all; He cares so much for US.  I was aching, and I didn't realize God was aching along with me.  I'm so thankful for His love that He pours out on me.

and you. 

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